Friday, February 5, 2016

Making the decision to adopt

I have meet a lot of new friends on this journey and I have inspired couples take that leap of faith to adopt. When they had asked me about adoption, I am overcome with excitement and I jump in with all things adoption. You can tell when talking to someone that they are ready. They are not just ready to be pregnant or hold onto hope that another fertility treatment may succeed. They are ready to be a mother no matter the mounds of paperwork ahead, no matter the months of waiting in silence, no matter the DNA.

There were years that I lost that light in my eyes. YEARS. I became very good at hiding my sadness. I became an expert at lying to people about my struggles and ultimately lying to myself. I honestly thought if I could just try harder, drink less caffeine, exercise more, exercise less, stop drinking anything but water, go on vacation, drink more almond milk, take my temperature daily, test my ovulation, see every specialist, test my blood, and TAKE ALL THE SUPPLEMENTS that I would finally become pregnant. Talk about losing your mind.

In the midst of my controlling and (let's be honest) kinda crazy behavior, there was one very important thing I wasn't doing. I wasn't asking God what He wanted for my life. Don't get me wrong- I was praying, BOY WAS I PRAYING! But my prayers had tunnel vision: that we become pregnant. I wasn't asking God what He wanted for our lives as parents. I was assuming I knew what He wanted and if I tried harder, He would grant me that wish.

So here's the thing I've learned the hard way- this is not how our loving God works. He is not a magical, wish-granting genie. He is not waiting for me to say or do the right thing and then BAM give me what I've asked for. God wants our heart, all of our heart and He wants us to trust that He has the best in store for us. Nothing but the best. Once I shifted my prayers and began asking God to use me, my life drastically changed and slowly the light entered back in.

Wow, yeah, so- I could have become pregnant that year of 2010 and we could have moved on with our lives like many do. We would have been happy. We would have had some struggles but ultimately, we would have made it through.

But guess what happened instead?

Instead, I've had FIVE amazing years getting to know my husband better and we've made the best memories, just him and I, that I will cherish forever. God gave me nieces and nephews to love while waiting for a baby.

I can only describe it as being saved from drowning. I was deep, deep in sorrow, my heart was severely broken, and it was getting harder to breathe. In that moment that we deiced that we were going to adopt,  I was lifted.  I was also given the gift of courage to share my story. I've never been brave enough before, I was always ashamed of our infertility, but suddenly, and with new passion that wasn't of me, I wanted everyone to know everything I'd been through.
That was The Plan. 
To share. To be brutally honest. To be translucent. For me, for you, and for all who come after me and need it. The Plan doesn't consist of just becoming a mother, that's just a part of the The Plan. God's Plan is SO MUCH MORE BEAUTIFUL AND GRATIFYING than that. The Plan was and continues to be about coming closer to God and giving my life over to Him, no matter  the *fill in the blank.*

So this year I have no other wish than to seek Jesus and wait on His perfect timing. Am I wanting a baby? Yes. Do I sometimes get impatient. YES. Is it possible we will go another year without having a child? Yes. Am I ready to fight the fight and trust that God will not let me drown, no matter what? YES! LET'S DO THIS, 2016!

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Update from January

Update from January

 January has been another BUSY month for us! We are excited to share it all with you! 

Homestudy Update:
We have gotten it finished and when our adoption coordinator went to mail it to us Saturday she noticed that my name was spelt ‘Brittany’ instead of Brittney! So she contacted the lady that wrote up the homestudy to have her change it than it will again be ready for everyone to sign off! Fingers crossed that it will be this week!   

Adoption Letter Update:
It is FINISHED!! We have sent the hard copy to the adoption coordinator and she loved it! They didn’t print them on the right card stock weight so they are fixing that but it is finished!

January Fundraising has been successful:
I was able to make 25 sign and sell to amazing supporters! I had 9 that I personalized for donations only which was a huge success!  

WE OPENED OUR ETSY SHOP!! I have already had 3 sales in a week :) We are very thankful! Here is the website and we are open to making custom items too! 

I am hosting a Wine & Crafting which we have 12 lovely ladies purchase tickets for and I am so excited to show them what I love doing! 

Puzzle Update:
The puzzle is 60% full with only 81 pieces left! We are amazed with all those who have supported this fundraiser and sponsored pieces! To get your puzzle piece go here: 

Thanks again:
With all that being said we hope to be approved and LIVE by this week! We are 72% to our fundraising goal and we are hoping to be full financed in May! We have exciting events planned and cant wait to share them with you! Thanks again for everyone's support and prayers during this journey.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Wine & Crafting- First Event of 2016!

I'm so excited to host this event! I will be teaching you what I LOVE doing! We will be drinking wine and crafting! We will be making personalized burlap wreaths! Your choices of burlap for your wreath are teal, tan, or red! We will be personalizing them with a cream wooden letter of your choice! We only have 30 spots available for this event! YOU MUST HAVE A TICKET TO COME TO THIS EVENT! Tickets are first come, first serve! Ticket sales end on Jan 30th unless they are sold out before! To get your ticket:
Here are you choices to pick from:

Come join us for a good time and crafting your OWN burlap wreath! All of the proceeds go towards our adoption! We are excited about this fundraising event!
Food and beverage will be available for purchase at The Renaissance! 
Wine is not included in the class price, but is available for purchase.  BYOB is not permitted at this event; The Renaissance does have wine, soft drinks, and CafĂ© foods available for purchase.  
Wine and Crafting is an entertainment event much like a concert, dinner theater or movie theater. I do NOT allow cancellations or reschedules as this is a fundraising event.

Date: Sat, 2/6/2015, 1:00-3:00 PM
Location: The Renaissance- 101 West National Avenue, Brazil, IN
Price: $45